The Moods of Me

Sometimes I get motion sickness from myself… From how quickly my moods shift and change.

I have no control over them.

There never seems to be a moment of tranquillity. Only moods of harsh extremities.

To give you some insight I’ve listed a few below…

Understatedly OverwhelmedMood One: Understatedly Overwhelmed
Hide in bed, cover self with quilt, position
self into the ‘child’ yoga pose and try not
to fall apart.

Mood Two: Easily Annoyed
Lash out at inanimate objects. Beat
pathetically with hands, feet or other
inanimate objects. Hurt self instead.
Repeat process.
Blank Nothingness
Mood Three: Blank Nothingness
Feel bewildered for no reason. Wander
aimlessly through house or environment.
Stop at a potential staring point. Stare.

Mood Four: Regressing Backwards
Realise you are nothing but a failure. Cry.
Sob. Wail like a baby. Wipe snot onto sleeve.
Curl into ball. Hug teddy bear. Fall asleep
The World Is Endingfrom exhausting crying session.

Mood Five: The World is Ending
Find a confined space, and squeeze into said
confined space. Bury head into chest and
squeeze eyes shut. Hug knees (if possible)
and remain in position until found.

Mood Six: Internal and External Torturing
Hate on self. Call self names. Point out flaws.
Silencing ThoughtsBlame self for everything. Feel incredible
anger towards one’s self. Surrender to self harm.
Punish self.

Mood Seven: Silencing Thoughts
Locate a comfortable seat and sit. Take a
deep breath in. Hold. Hold it. Keep holding
it. Hold it some more. Let it out. Allow light
headedness to blur all thoughts.

Finding HumourMood Eight: Endless Consumption
Wake up. Worry. Worry. Worry. Worry.
Worry. Worry. Worry. Worry. Worry. Worry.
Worry. Worry. Worry. Worry. Worry. Worry.
Worry. Worry. Worry. Worry. Go to sleep.

Mood Nine: Finding Humour
Feel swamped by negative thoughts.
Recognise that your own mind has created
those thoughts. Laugh at self.

Mood Ten: Unknown
Have a fleeting moment of feeling alrig…
Nope. It’s gone.

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